Yeap, i believe in karma. I think yu believe in karma too right? So why bother asking? Want to know something? Let me tell yu this, i have already get my karma. So yes, i've already feel how he feel before. But that doesnt mean i get back to him just cause am afraid of karma will continue hitting me just that he is the only person who will always be there thru my thin and will always support me in anyway and the most important thing he has never EVER give up on me and he is the only person who truly loves me. Remember this, no one in this world is perfect and has never do any mistakes before. So yeah, i've learned from my mistakes and now i need to change to be a better person. How was my explanation? Good enough for you to understand? If still cannot understand, how about yu state yur name down and i tell yu everything. Do come again<3<

I have not been blogging for quite sometimes  i guess? Now i shall blog everything that has on my mind. Currently, am missing my faezboncet veryvery much as we did not meet up with each other for quite sometimes.  Well, for now i have been busy with my life especially with my daily routine, house cleaning. Apart from that, i have been away from home for almost two weeks as i need to help my aunt for my cousins wedding. Many things need to be done and mostly my auntie count on me to do those jobs. Gosh:/. I have not been getting enough rest for myself till i fall sick. I have been coughing badly this few days but there's no sign of me recovering even though i did take up my medicine regularly.

 Last saturday, i had my family dinner at eastcoast. I really enjoyed myself with them. After we had our dinner, we make ourself to marina barrage. I have been thinking of flying kite with faezboncet and friends but it seems the plan is not working, all thanks to me because am busy with my stuffs. Today, a lot of people is at my auntie house to do the hamper. I did some of the hamper just now but it didnt turned out great as they wanted, so  they need to re- do it again. But its alright, at least i did make some effort by trying and helping her out to do those hamper. Thank god, they still appreciate what i have been doing for them.

* perangai budak gemok*

I do not want to be a looser again ever since the last mistakes that i've made before. I do not want to loose someone special again just because i keep repeating my old mistakes. But i know, that you aint like others who did not give me any chance to prove to you that am not like before. I'll promise you, that whatever happens for the past i will changed to be a better person. I will never regret for what has happened for the past, as the past teaches me to be strong and not letting others keep stepping on my head. I know that i have responsibility to take care of and thats you, so yeah i wont let the past haunt us again. I know that you are scared that i will leave you again like how i did to you before. Trust me, i'm also scared that i'll be doing the same old mistakes again as i'm a human being too who will obviously keep continuing making mistakes w/o failed. I hope allah heard my prayers. I know that you did not trust me any longer ever since i left you. I felt hurt when every time you keep repeating that someone name in our r/s . But its alright, i know that you are more hurt seeing me before with someone else. I'll really hope that you wont mention anyone's name in our r/s. I really hope that you will bring myself to the old me. I just cant deny that i really miss being my old self. This isnt me , who you new. I feel weird when am started to change to someone else cause i hate being that nur hariyati as people keep playing around with my feelings and take things for granted. But now, i just realised something that being a girl who did not a lot of things is much more better rather knowing everything in this world. As was because what you will be getting is pain in returned. Even being that nur hariyati, i realised that i have great companies around me. I miss being the old me. I do not want to loose you again as now i've began to appreciate you more and loving you more. I'll really  hope that you feel the same. In what everything i do now, i will always need you by my side. I love you, honey.

Goodnight readers,

Good morning lovelies, i just woke up from my beauty sleep. I'm still in my sleeping mood as i've been yawning since just now but what to do i need to get myself up early as i need to do house cleaning before i leave this house. I'll be returning home for a while as there's some stuffs that i left behind and i want to take it here with me. Then, i'll be meeting faizboncet and natasha i guess? As i miss them like so much. Ha ha Deelah is waiting for her belated birthday gifts from faizboncet because faizboncet has already promise her that he will buy it  for her but with a condition. I've fulfill those condition so its your turn baby. Promises aint supposed to break. So yeah :) Sometimes, i wished that i could have my  old phone with me right now. I miss it much. I'll be returning Deelahbaby phone's back asap. Thank it for borrowing towards me appreciate much. 

 I'll be away from home for two weeks since i'll be helping my auntie for wedding preparation. Oh, i cant wait for it as on saturday25th i'll be wearing a long dress and many people will be coming to my auntie house. I'm starting to miss my 3 little princess and  also missing this guy up here. Aww~, yesterday we went to jurong west to get myself a new phone and yeah, i've already bought it. Then we make our way to far east to have our lunch and get myself a rip curl sling bag. Thought of buying a reef/ rip curl slipper but that rip curl bag attracts  me more. So goanna grab that slipper soon. And ohh, i'll be meeting this fatboy on wednesday as he will be acompanying me to take my pay. I'm starting to miss him already<3.

Its time to grow up, its time to move on. Its time to start  to listening to a happy song instead a sad one.  My life is moving so fast that nothing can be stopped. So yeah, its the time for me to get over you and be with someone else. Im so in love with faizboncet. Hopefully we will last till eternity this time. The past mistakes let it just be the past instead for now we should focus what goanna happens next and hopefully we will go through every obstacles calmly. Since we both decided to continue so yeah in two months times it will be our 3 years of anniversary. May allah, be there besides us always.

goodbye.

Sometimes I do really think if leaving in this world if it is really worth it. Will they really appreciate our presence in their life and accept us for who we are and not for whom we are when with them. If they really appreciate us, I’m sure they will accept us and not asking for higher expectations needed. Sometimes, is just impossible when we need to change our ways just for their own good just to let them feel comfortable. Maybe if we are in a wrong they should correct us and advice us not to repeat those mistakes again. But when, we was being told to change our ways just for them sometimes is just too impossible as we has already comfortable with our lifestyle. Hais. People will always tend to forget the memories that have been going through them, just because of something that they have done. Why they just can’t gave us second chance to prove to them that we have already change and isn’t like last time. Ohmygod :/ that was so impossible.

I was a little upset yesterday; mum’s words brought me down. She didn’t even appreciate what I have been doing for her didn’t she? Instead she gave me those negative comments towards me. But why? How would you feel if you were in my shoes? You will never feel me. If I was to tell faizboncet about what had happened yesterday I don’t even think he will understand and feel how I feel. Gosh :/.

Back to the topic, I just cant get myself to bed and I thought of updating my blog before it dead. My day with my babygirls was a blast one indeed. We went to jurong east swimming complex; luckily they were not much people. The photos is with them, so which means I cant upload it here. Ha ha. Most probably if we were to go today, it will be packed. Will be going to wet supermarket later on with mum. Hopefully, it wont rains. The weather is so cold such that I must get myself a jacket to put on. I think I will having fever soon as am coughing badly and having headache. I’ll be meeting faizboncet in the afternoon since the other day we aint able to meet each other. He will be accompanying me to buy my phone and I guess I will be going too far east to have my lunch first and will be proceeding to somewhere to get myself a volcom/roxy slipper. Anw I’ve already started an early revision on my sec 4 maths since there’s nothing to do at home. Wohooo~ im excitied for it.